W/e

What a pain. everything is always my fault. if the computer breaks, its my fault; if the TV is messed up, its my fault, if the stupid food gets over boiled, its my fault. and then, when they wanna talk to me, they always say, "oh, nobody's ganging up on you". No, you all just blame everything on me, and say that there's so much stress because of me. and when i tell you something, its never the truth. nope, i just tell a lie, because my good old mouth just feels like it. whenever i do something wrong, oh, there's never any innocence, or any forgetful thinking, im being malevolent on prupose, it's all just because. and i can never try to explain myself because it's aaalllll just bull, right? or if i still try to, you like to bring up the fact that im always getting in trouble, and that i suck in school, which is stupid, when i tell you how school is all the time. and that not even hearing you when you come in the house and not saying hi is me just being a jerk. and i absolutely love how you say i never try to effing change, when im killing myself trying to be a different person, so that all of you dont have to go through all this crap that i wont list in public cause itll take too long to write. pah. i cant beleive this. since ive come up here 8 years ago, ive had to deal with a person with a horrible temper, a hypocrite, and someone who says they couldnt carw less. i apologize for the spelling, i cant really see now. ahaha, this is the exact reason i hate crying. hah, i shouldnt write that, because then youll just say that im being a basby and need to get a backbone weont you? w/e. you always say to think about things from someone else's piont of view, to see how it'lkl affect others around me, but you havent done jack sh** to see how i might f**ing feel. is it because im the youngest, you just think that im being stupid, and i dont have anything important to say? ahaha, well anywaay, you should start thinking about how i feel, because my anger is starting to shine through. im normally a happy, talkative, energetic person, but lataely, ive been to mad to be that. even my friends are staring to notuice. they sasy that im an angry person, and i sure as f*** amn startinmg to be. this isntr alll i have tos ay, biut i cant seee through mhy tears, and ik cant really spell whhen i cxant see. im gna have to come back and spell check all this.