Freshmen are wise :D

so i was talking to my little buddy one day, and she said something that shocked me, jsut the amount of insight and wisdom that came pouring out of her mouth. this was hella surprising, cause this little buddy of mine was one of the blondest, some might even say douchiest of people(Taylor Tran).we were jsut talking about nothing, nd then all of a sudden we got into this conversation about other peoples' opinions. i forget why she said it, but i just remember her saying this little quote "you know, alot of people have heard about you dalvyn. they may not know you personally, but alot of people at least know who you are." i was jsut like "whaaaa???" then she's like "yeah, if you tend to get along with people, people tend to hear about you more. but the thing is, the more people that know you, the more people that wont like you, or at least hate on you. they may think that you have soemthing they dont, or maybe they're just beffing with you for no reason, but not everyone's going to like you. thats why i just grin and bear it, and i dont let the small shit get to me. i try not to let people that arent important to me influence my decisions." nd this little blurb has got me realizing that everything i do in public is influenced by other people one way or another. i havent asked out any girls that i know like me because im afraid of what other people will say, i dont show how smart i really am becuase im afraid that people might think im a know-it-all, and im afraod to show my true feelings to someone because im afraid of what others might think of me. the wierd thing is, now that i think about it, i realize that that's all childish sh!t. i've come to the decision that i dont really care waht people think anymore, cause it's pulled me too far back from where i should be. f*ck that. i think i just found my new years' resolution. thanks taylor.

(01022010)!!

so this is my first blog in a couple of months, and to be frank, im not really missing it. right now this is just going to be a visual thought board for me, so i can get my head in order . i dont really care if anyone sees this, but i guess thats the point of blogger,no?so right now im just gna put everything into one big blog right now. so 2009 was an okay year for me, didnt do much till the end. to tell you the truth, im glad this year is over, but now its time for me to brae myself for this period of the school year. this is the time of year, the "dark age" when stress gets to me and im so stressed out and angry i fight with my closest friends. honestly, i need to just do what i need to do to stay stress-free and stay the sweet little boy i am. ;) this school year was such a big change for me. im no longer frineds with my closest from last year, and i must be honest and say i miss them like crazy, bbut i guess wveryone goes down their own paths in life. to tell you the truth htough, everytime i talk to them, i feel that old charm that kept us as friends last year, but i cant complain about the friends i've got now. just in the past 4 months alone ive had just as much fun as the entire school year last year. muahahahah. screw it, i am gna put everything into different blogs.