Oh. Yes.

Yes. the finalsare over. its all ican do from screaming with relief. honestly, i think my heart's about to give out. heheh. im typing as if im calm, but its taken me about...mmmmm....7 minutes just to get this far. i just cant sit still. ha. ahhahahahahahahahhahaahahahahhahahhahahahah
jahhahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahah
hahahahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. there. i am done.
:D

YyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Thanks you two

Thanks Ally and Jef-f-fuh
:)

A different type of thanks for someone special

this post is dedicated to someone else.
(i cant find her blog for the life of me!)
(its a poem!)
(but it doesnt rhyme. and theres no rythm)
:/

Thanks for what youve done for me, for what youve helped me become.
Im stronger because of what ive gone through with you,
but unlike almost every other person that is happy that theyve gone through what youve made them go through, im more pissed then a urinal at Qwest Field.
well, here goes.

thanks for being friends with me, thst one summer day.
thanks for saying hi to me at lunch when i was alone
thanks for giving me a hug when you barely knew me.
thanks for being sad when i didnt give you one.
thanks for not telling on me when i did what i did
thanks for comforting me when i wasnt happy.
thanks for liking me.
thanks for helping me with my girl troubles, haha :)
thanks for telling me your problems so i could help and finally feel useful to someone
thanks for talking to me about stuff that you probably wouldnt talk about with most other people
thanks for upping my morale when my grades were bad
thanks for spending time with me
but i also want to say...
thanks for trying to use me to cheat on your boyfriend
thanks for moving from dude to dude, making me feel lost about once a month
thanks for helping me feel confused about my feelings for you
thanks for ditching me
thanks for one day saying you like me, then the next saying you dont because it would "ruin our friendship", and then for still using me as a tool to seem flirty in public.
thanks for saying youll always be there, and not be there, cuhz youre too busy flirting
and thanks for leaving me...
even though you're not leaving now, you're gonna be gone next year
and thanks for saying that you, quote," wont stay just for my friends"
thanks for not realizing how hurtful that was.

no matter what though, i will always try my hardest to be the best friend to you as i can be, and i will always try to look over your shortcomings, cuhz i know that i have mine too.

Hate. "its a strong word, you should mean it when you use it". that's something everybody thinks or says when they hear someone else say that word. the thing is, the people who usually say that are almost always the people that say "i love you!" 24/7. what they dont realize is that hate is a strong word, but love is just as strong a word. i used to take that word seriously, cuhz last year, the people that said it to me were the people that meant it. but now the phrase"i love you" is just as common a phrase as "shut up" or the ever so famous " i know, right?"

ergh. dont you just wish for the last school year to have never ended, to be with your true friends, safe and secure? Not having to deal with the issues of moving to high school, all the drama, all the lies, all the pain? Dont you wish that they never moved 9th grade to high school, so you could spend an extra year with all your friends. but alas, now things have changed, and most of your friends( that arent at your current school) are at another high school(Kentwood), with a few of them, including at least 2 of your closest friends going to another(Kentlake), with a light smattering going to another school(Kentridge).

everything has changed again. Ive switched most of my friends for the 3rd time in the past 3 years. just when i was feeling comfortable at Meridian, the school year ended; and everyone at KM is just so strange, so different, so alien. i feel lost again, just like i did at Sequoia, just like Meridian, and i totally dont know what to do about it. anyway, just needed to vent, if you take the time to read this, i thank you, and tomorrow i gotta go bck out there into the wild, world. i really will try to keep my head up and shoulders back, cuhz even though right now i feel that im alone, i know there's someone out there who feels the same way i do
:/

Alrighty, lets get this blog thingy started.(what does blog stand for by the way?) i should've started like, a year ago, but hey, what can you do about it right? so, today...hmmmmm.... what happened? eh, nothing much. though i would like to say... if a dude tells you who hes crushing on, its really great if you didn't TELL THE PERSON HE IS CRUSHING ON!!!!!!!!!! ugh, honestly, i don't think anything pisses me off more. that's one thing that i hate, when people are fake. they act like they are your friends, (or maybe they really are) and they promise that they wont tell anybody who you're crushing on, cuhz they know that you re the only other person that knows. and thennnnn... what do they do? they tell the person you're crushing on! it wouldn't be half as bad as if they told some other person that knew your crush personally, or if they just told your other friends that you're close to, but nnnnnnoooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooo, you go on ahead and tel the actual person. ugh. i hate the things people do sometimes. its honestly stupid.