Sunday, March 1, 2009
W/e
What a pain. everything is always my fault. if the computer breaks, its my fault; if the TV is messed up, its my fault, if the stupid food gets over boiled, its my fault. and then, when they wanna talk to me, they always say, "oh, nobody's ganging up on you". No, you all just blame everything on me, and say that there's so much stress because of me. and when i tell you something, its never the truth. nope, i just tell a lie, because my good old mouth just feels like it. whenever i do something wrong, oh, there's never any innocence, or any forgetful thinking, im being malevolent on prupose, it's all just because. and i can never try to explain myself because it's aaalllll just bull, right? or if i still try to, you like to bring up the fact that im always getting in trouble, and that i suck in school, which is stupid, when i tell you how school is all the time. and that not even hearing you when you come in the house and not saying hi is me just being a jerk. and i absolutely love how you say i never try to effing change, when im killing myself trying to be a different person, so that all of you dont have to go through all this crap that i wont list in public cause itll take too long to write. pah. i cant beleive this. since ive come up here 8 years ago, ive had to deal with a person with a horrible temper, a hypocrite, and someone who says they couldnt carw less. i apologize for the spelling, i cant really see now. ahaha, this is the exact reason i hate crying. hah, i shouldnt write that, because then youll just say that im being a basby and need to get a backbone weont you? w/e. you always say to think about things from someone else's piont of view, to see how it'lkl affect others around me, but you havent done jack sh** to see how i might f**ing feel. is it because im the youngest, you just think that im being stupid, and i dont have anything important to say? ahaha, well anywaay, you should start thinking about how i feel, because my anger is starting to shine through. im normally a happy, talkative, energetic person, but lataely, ive been to mad to be that. even my friends are staring to notuice. they sasy that im an angry person, and i sure as f*** amn startinmg to be. this isntr alll i have tos ay, biut i cant seee through mhy tears, and ik cant really spell whhen i cxant see. im gna have to come back and spell check all this.
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Augh! Bestie, you do everything right in my eyes! (-;
ReplyDeleteDamn Guy, this is really ummm...Ranting.
ReplyDeletewhat do I got to say?
uhmmmm...
well.
For sure, EVERYONE has messed up from the smallest thing such as like, Turn off the Stove when you leave the house, to like ruining a relationship. Everybody makes mistake, and in the end, it's someone's fault. I came up here to like...4 Years ago I think, not that much, but it was really different. In Cali, the people are hella mean, and if you don't keep up your gonna fade. I had to change so many times to fit in. In the end it wasn't worth it man. Believe me, I've had hella people said it was all MY fault. True, sometime's it was. I can admit that. I'd rather mess up 1000 times and learn something than doing it once, get it right, and not learn at all. The "look at it from 3rd person view to see how much is going to be affected" clause? Man. But you can't argue it, because like...It's true. Everything people try to explain, talk, or even yell will affect other people. Just like a joke makes people laugh. You know? It's wierd explaining to a guy. But oh well.
THat I can relate to. Im the youngest...person....ever. Family, Friends, School, etc etc. Most of the time, Im the "scapegoat". I argued, whined, and cried over that fact. But in the end, it just made me realize I'm happy to take the fall sometimes you know?
Fact:
People will cover up for other people, because they don't need to, because they wanted to.
Another Fact:
I covered up that my cousin did NOT start a fight with that 7 11 manager. No he did not.
But Like, If I were you, I'd skip this whole comment. But eh. If I were you, I'd realize of what I have in front of me everyday.
Ehh.
Somethings up.
D-vyn, you see wrong in yourself.
ReplyDeleteBut people like Als, and Jeff, and I... All we see is good, dude. Keep your head up high! If life had an easy button they'd be sold out before you could say fish..=]