Hate. "its a strong word, you should mean it when you use it". that's something everybody thinks or says when they hear someone else say that word. the thing is, the people who usually say that are almost always the people that say "i love you!" 24/7. what they dont realize is that hate is a strong word, but love is just as strong a word. i used to take that word seriously, cuhz last year, the people that said it to me were the people that meant it. but now the phrase"i love you" is just as common a phrase as "shut up" or the ever so famous " i know, right?"
ergh. dont you just wish for the last school year to have never ended, to be with your true friends, safe and secure? Not having to deal with the issues of moving to high school, all the drama, all the lies, all the pain? Dont you wish that they never moved 9th grade to high school, so you could spend an extra year with all your friends. but alas, now things have changed, and most of your friends( that arent at your current school) are at another high school(Kentwood), with a few of them, including at least 2 of your closest friends going to another(Kentlake), with a light smattering going to another school(Kentridge).
everything has changed again. Ive switched most of my friends for the 3rd time in the past 3 years. just when i was feeling comfortable at Meridian, the school year ended; and everyone at KM is just so strange, so different, so alien. i feel lost again, just like i did at Sequoia, just like Meridian, and i totally dont know what to do about it. anyway, just needed to vent, if you take the time to read this, i thank you, and tomorrow i gotta go bck out there into the wild, world. i really will try to keep my head up and shoulders back, cuhz even though right now i feel that im alone, i know there's someone out there who feels the same way i do
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I feel out of place at Kent-Meridian too.
ReplyDeletebut hey, it's only freshmen year.
Dude, that's how I felt at Meeker. Yes Meeker, that gay ass little school in the middle of the forest...but hey, they went undefeated in Track. So did MC in my 7th...weird eh? I missed hella of my friends from meeker, and one person I knew from 6th grade. We were like sister and brother! But then we go our seperate ways you know. But man, just take a peek at what you do have rather than you don't have. And if your still bothered by this, then go call all of them up and go beat up some random dude at Kent Station. A reuninion you know? That's what I was planning to do on Friday! Except replace that with Shopping with a friend and her "crush". haha. But I miss my friends too. And yeah there's hella people out there that are thinking on the same thing, but they can't feel the same WAY you do sometimes you know? I really wished that I would've gone to Kentridge with Meeker people, or a quiet School in California where I would be the new wierd asian loner, but I didn't want to because KM had everything I didn't want, but everything I needed. The person standing on top of this comment is right. It's only Freshmen Year. Make most of you can out of it. Your Senior Version would tell you to do that.
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